'Affection' is the title of a song by Amber Run. It's a journey of exploring love and the complex tornado of emotion that encompasses it. The lyrics are pure poetry that paint a picture in your mind with every word adding a new brushstroke until you’re left with a masterpiece. Each note throughout this track feels like a freight train of emotion, oozing heart-torn sadness and sounding almost like a cry. It's a beautiful song, and it's a title I wanted to connect to some of the more vulnerable images I've made. Rather than showing snapshots of the editing process, I wanted to focus on documenting the process of actually shooting the images, from setting up the background to me just swishing my dress and flicking my hair in case I want to add some motion to the final photo. I don't really have anything else to say about this: it's the one time where I'm more articulate when I'm speaking rather than when I'm writing. So, this is 'Affection'.
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Originally, I wanted to wait until I had a 'row' of three images before posting this blog, but I decided I wanted to stick to what I planned for this to be: weekly updates of the stories I create in this flat. I was listening to a lot of Dodie this week (I recently gave in and got Spotify so I'm trying to get the statistics to loosely match my iTunes ones) and a lyric from her song 'Human' connected with me a little more than usual: "Will you share your soul with me? Unzip your skin and let me have a see." So, in some ways, here is me taking off my armour and sharing myself with you. I was going to shoot against the wall by my bed in natural lighting, then with the lights on, then with the lights off and flash on, but it turned out I couldn't hang a sheet from that wall to create the black background I originally planned for, so I ended up using natural lighting and hanging a sheet off my wardrobe and bathroom doors. Here's the unfinished editing process for another image that will be in this series. There are many hours between 1.5 and 1.6: I realised that the black background wasn't working out for me, and having blue hair contrasts a lot with the soft pink colour scheme I was going for. Shooting the images made me feel incredibly vulnerable. Editing them, too. Usually, all my work is fully clothed and I'm focusing on the background and added details and making the dress more dramatic rather than focusing on my body. With these, I was forced to, and I'm almost embarrassed to admit that it took an incredible amount of willpower not to slim my waist and my arms or erase the natural rolls in my side when I lean over. However, I will say that I did remove the moles on my back: not due to insecurity, but they conflicted with the images I had for unzipping the skin.
So, this is the one image I made this week. I think it's the most proud I've been of anything I've ever made. |
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